Everyone has their own taste, even in love. I used to be confident that I knew my husband's taste very well. But my confidence was shattered when I found sexy pictures and videos on his computer. The women in those pictures... were nothing like me.
After many years of marriage, I felt as if I had been betrayed. My confidence in this marriage suddenly disappeared miserably. The photos and videos my husband saved on his phone made me feel heartbroken, as if he had secretly criticized and "cuckolded" me.
When I asked him, he was calm and said he didn't understand why he saved them. He thought it was a small matter, not worth worrying about, those photos and videos were nothing. But I still felt angry, as if I had been lied to, betrayed. My heart was miserable.
I used to be very confident that I was the true love of his life, no one could make him more infatuated than me (Illustration: iStock).
After nearly 10 years of being together and having two children together, I accidentally discovered my husband's "strange taste" when I borrowed his computer to use temporarily. I found a folder full of "cool" photos and videos of women with a loose style. I immediately tried to look at my husband's web browsing log and social media activity history.
I discovered that he had a secondary account, dedicated to following and "socializing" with girls who had a rather unrestrained way of expressing themselves. He interacted with them a lot, expressing his ardent admiration and even sending flirtatious messages. When I questioned him, he swore that he still loved me and had done nothing wrong in reality.
He insisted that he still found me the most beautiful and attractive. If his actions made me unhappy, he promised to stop. However, my pride was hurt. Every time we were intimate, I was haunted by the thought that he was secretly dreaming about other girls.
Accidentally discovering my husband's new taste made me feel like I was... ugly and pathetic. It seemed like I was redundant, he no longer truly loved me. Those closenesses and affections were most likely just my husband's responsibility, the love he had for me.
I used to be very confident that I was the true love of his life, that no one could make him more passionate than me. But now, every time we go out and a girl dressed sexy and boldly passes by, my heart aches, I feel extremely insecure. My confidence in front of my husband is gone. I wonder if I can overcome my husband's betrayal?
When I told this story, everyone laughed, thinking I was "childish" and didn't understand. It's normal for men to let their minds wander, rather than actually having an affair. The fact that I found photos and videos of "strange girls" on my husband's phone was nothing compared to the fact that I discovered he was cheating. They advised me to think more openly.
But for me, he had "mental infidelity", betrayed me spiritually. Was having me still not enough for him? Why did he have to dream about another woman?
If I also fantasize about other men, will my husband think it's normal? If I save pictures and videos of other men on my phone, will he think it's a small matter?
We came together with love, conquered each other with many things, including appearance, temperament, intelligence, ability, lifestyle... I used to be very confident about my attractiveness to him.
But over the years, everyone changes. I may not be as attractive as before, but neither are you. Before and after, I still cherish and love you, absolutely loyal, my mind does not wander.
Do you understand how hurt I was? My trust in you, my confidence in myself was shattered. The moment I accidentally found those pictures that helped you "relax and comfort" every day, I was completely broken.
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