This year I am 38 years old. Ten years ago, for various reasons, although we were not in love much and the time we spent getting to know each other was short, I still decided to marry a girl from the next village who was 1 year younger than me. Now we have 2 very beautiful and well-behaved children, one is 9 years old, the other is 6 years old. However, the more we live together, the more my wife and I do not understand and are not compatible in many aspects: from personality to thinking and life perspective. My family has a tradition of education, while my wife is not.
Because of different life views, my wife and I often quarrel or have a "cold war", making life always tense. I tried to be patient with my wife. There were many things that my parents did not like but they forgave their daughter-in-law and advised me to endure, but day by day, our conflicts grew bigger, making me feel like I could not endure it anymore. I thought a lot, although I loved my children very much, I still had to ask for a divorce from her. Of course, my wife did not agree. She cried, insulted me, and even threatened to commit suicide, which made me worried. I asked my family for their opinion and this time everyone showed their support, so I unilaterally filed for divorce in court. The court called us to reconcile and negotiate once, I was still determined with my intention, she was the same, so now I am waiting for the court's decision.
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During this time, when I was bored and disappointed with my family, I accidentally met T, my first love. That day, we broke up not because we stopped loving each other, but because my parents did not accept having to marry into an imperfect family, her mother gave birth to a child alone, she had no father. This was one of the reasons why I blindly married my wife.
After breaking up with me, T also married another man and returned to her husband's hometown. Meeting T again, the feelings of my first love returned. My feelings for T were still intact like when I was young. Since then, she and I often called and texted each other, but we did not meet in person. Every time I talked to her or received a message from her, I felt so happy. The words, the stories, the laughter, the happy messages... made me feel like I was reliving the old days. I could only feel it alone and did not dare to tell T, because I was afraid it would affect her family.
But after a while, I found out that T's life was also full of misfortunes and her marriage was not as she wished. Her husband was a worthless person, he had no job, and on top of that, he was addicted to drugs, so all the property in the house gradually disappeared. Out of money, he bought drugs to distribute and also to satisfy his addiction, so now he is serving a prison sentence. Knowing T's situation, I felt even more sorry for her and wanted to make up for her emotional deprivation for so long. I decided to meet T and we gave each other all our long-standing desires and no longer knew anything about our surroundings. T and I always had a burning desire, no matter how much we were together, it was still not enough and we always felt lacking...
But that also makes me very worried. Because now, I have not completed the divorce procedure. I am afraid that if my wife does not agree, I will not be able to divorce her. And my family will probably not accept it if they know that I am back with T, the person my parents did not approve of before.
Another difficulty is that her and her child's life is currently extremely difficult, they no longer have a house to live in and have to rent a house. I do not have enough financial capacity to build a new life for her with full material things. Moreover, when T's husband gets out of prison, if he knows about this, he will definitely not leave us alone. I want to go with T to a far away place so that we can start over, but there are also my children, her children and my family.
I don’t want to be known as an irresponsible person because of love. We have thought a lot and shed tears many times because we couldn’t imagine how we would live if one day we could no longer love each other and could no longer be together. Why is life so painful? Is it true that we could live without love, but now, when we find love, we have to accept living in such pain?./.
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