So fast, only a few days left until 3 years since Dad left this world , also 1,095 days since we were "fatherless". Before, every time I witnessed someone in pain and struggle when losing a loved one, I used to think that no one can avoid the law of birth - aging - sickness - death. Everyone has to leave naturally, if not for this reason then for another. But since Dad left, I have felt this pain more deeply. Until now, I still cannot accept that it is true, this loss is too great for me when the pain of losing Mom has not yet subsided, the shock of losing Dad at the age of 30 made me collapse once again.
Every time I hear someone say the word “orphan”, my heart slows down a beat, it hurts so much, we - no matter how grown up, are still small in our parents’ arms, still wishing to be complete, to have our parents by our side to protect us. The day I heard that you had cancer - a disease that had no cure, the whole sky at that time seemed to collapse, my body felt like it had thousands of knife wounds, it was so painful, Dad.
Dad taught us everything, but he didn't teach us how to live without him in this world. You know, the day you left us to return to mother earth, that was a day I could never forget. I was the last person to return to you. Standing by your hospital bed, I could only silently look at the weak, wrinkled face of the man who had been the strong support of my life. Seeing me, dad's tears flowed, he tried to whisper, but he had no strength left to speak. His breathing became rapid and gradually weakened.
I sat there holding my father's cold, calloused, veiny hands and rubbing them on my cheeks, feeling everything in this life suddenly become meaningless. My eyes blurred with tears, my heart filled with a choking helplessness. I called my father until my throat was hoarse, but he just lay there without answering. In my arms, my father gently fell into a long, long sleep, never to wake up again.
Daughter loves dad so much, loves dad's short life, his fate is not as lucky as others. Dad left in a hurry when we did not have time to do anything to repay his birth and upbringing. When I was little, I wished for dad to take me everywhere, to discover new things. When I grew up, I wanted to take dad to places he had never been to, to eat delicious food he had never eaten... but dad could not wait. That will forever be a torment, a shortcoming that I will never forget in this life.
3 years have passed, how is your world now? Is your life good there? Do you miss me? As for me, I always think about you, miss you, miss your voice, your figure, miss the memories with you... Zen Master Thich Nhat Hanh once said: "In fact, even though our loved ones have passed away, they are always by our side in another form" and Dad, I believe that, I feel that between you and me there is an invisible thread that still connects us, so that, in my dreams, I often see you, that image is very real Dad - a dream without distance, allowing me to see your return and talk to you.
Thank you, Dad... for being our Dad! We feel lucky to grow up in your silent and deep love. Dad is a normal person, wonderfully normal. Mom died early, Dad never remarried. Dad took care of us, taught us, and always loved us in his own way. Dad worked hard all his life, sacrificing everything so that we could have everything that he could never reach in this life. My sisters and I, looking up, are not as good as anyone, but looking down, we are always proud that, although we are not rich, we are happy to have a wonderful Dad.
Hello love, season 4, theme "Father" officially launched from December 27, 2024 on four types of press and digital infrastructure of Radio - Television and Binh Phuoc Newspaper (BPTV), promising to bring to the public the wonderful values of sacred and noble fatherly love. |
Source: https://baobinhphuoc.com.vn/news/19/171413/ngay-con-mat-bo
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